Skye's World

New post on my new Blog! :D

2011-01-24T23:15:00.001-08:00

http://undertheshadowofhiswings-skye.blogspot.com/

I have a brand new Blog! Care to check it out?

2011-01-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

Hey guys. :) I started a new Blog and I thought I'd let y'all have the the heads up! This Blog is like my virtual home and I'm going to share stories about my happy moments and my struggles on there, about how I am preparing myself to be what God wants me to be in my future.
Anyways, check it out! :) Click here to visit my brand new Blog.

I know...you have to go...

2010-12-30T23:35:00.000-08:00

I remember being four years old and angry. lol I was angry that I hadn't seen somebody in some time and I wanted to see him. I didn't understand why I couldn't see him and I was very determined to make my mother bring him to see us again. (My mother was trying with my biological father. She was trying to make things work, but thankfully...they didn't. :) I remember holding the little barbie crown in my hands that had been on the princess barbie he had given me awhile back. I only had the crown left because my biological father decided to take it upon himself to throw away my barbie doll. That man that I had wanted my mother to get to me by a "train, or boat, or car...whatever it takes!!!" (as mama told me I had said to her without knowing she was on the phone with him) is now my father. (Or step father if you want to be technical :P lol) That man has made such an impact on me since I was four years old, it's unbelievable. He has held me as I cried, countless times, over my biological father, he's been my teacher when I was about to bang my head into the wall because my school work, "makes no flippin sense!!!" as I would put it sometimes. lol He is not perfect, but he is an angel sent down to me. He was the gift God gave my mother and myself after my biological father just decided not to really give a crud anymore, or even try too...My father is going to be gone for six months. Two months for Basic Training, and four months for Tech School. I'm crying as I write this post, because I miss him already...I have tried to force myself to not think about it, but it is coming. I know that this what is best for our family. I know it will help dad too. But the thought of him being gone for so long hurts my heart...

It is almost a new year and I can feel the changes that are coming. I know that during this time, my family, my dad, and myself are going to change so much. Change is a scary thing, at least for me. Even if it's exciting, it can still be scary. It can be scary because...it's new. It's something that you've never experienced, or just something you're just not used too...My mom says, "It's fear of the unknown."...My faith has faltered many times in my life. There have been times when I didn't want to pray. I didn't want to talk to God, because quite frankly, I was mad at Him. (lol) It's so hard sometimes for me not to think, "You're God! You can do anything! Why are you letting this happen? Snap your fingers, utter a word, or just breath and change it! I know You can...Please. " But, I seem to forget that He is God, as I just told Him. (lol) He is smarter than me. Now, thinking back to those times that I fussed ,in a way at Him(lol), those times helped mold me. They helped me move forward. They've helped me help others...I've been pouring myself into His word. Just drinking up the Bible. It's is what eases my soul. It's like Him grabbing hold of my by the shoulders, forcing me to look into his eyes and telling me that everything is going to be alright. Then like the little child I am, I nod and sob in His arms for even doubting Him once, even though He knows good and well, I'll probably do it again. As strange as life is, I am absolutely positive about these things: I am loved, I have Jesus there for me at a drop of the hat, I am saved, I have a beautiful family, I have friends that I love dearly, Dad is leaving, Dad is coming back, I love dill pickles, I love my future husband where ever he may be, I still love eating ice cream when it's cold outside, and I'm so happy I can listen to music. Those were in a weird order, but that was the way they popped up in my head. (hehe)

Dad will probably be leaving sometime in Feb. I will miss him so very much. For now, I will be strong and cherish every time his large hand wraps around mine while we say dinner prayers, every hug, and every playful shove my daddy gives me...Thank you God for giving me such a wonderful dad...<3

Would you wait?

2010-12-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

     Do you love someone so much that you would do anything for them? I mean, anything? Would you put them before yourself, no matter how it effects you? Would you suffer to cause them happiness? I asked myself this question and the answer was, yes.

I have just started rereading a book that changed my convictions years ago. It's called, "I Kissed Dating Goodbye." (I will touch more on this completely awesome book in a bit ;) If you are a believer in dating, I'm sure you're thinking, "Ha! No thank you...Weirdo." lol
I know I grew up thinking that to find Mr. Right, you had to date. You had to go through a number of guys until you found the one that was made for you. The one that was your soul mate. Sounded like a darn good plan to me! But, over the years my mother learned new things about something called, Courting. Sounds old fashioned huh? Well, it is! I myself, am a lover of old fashioned things so I was curious about what it was as soon as my mother uttered the word. She told me that, (this was a few years back) she no longer wanted me to want to date when the time came. When you "court" you choose to never be really alone with the guy. It protects your heart and his. You spend time with eachothers family. After all, you marry the guy/girl, you marry their family as well. ;) My first thought was, "What? You don't want me to date? What are you talking about? I have to date if I want to find him!" lol   At this point I had liked a few guys but the word date hadn't really popped up. But I knew it was around the corner. I was now a teenager. People were asking me if I had a boyfriend. I was ready to tell them, "Yes. As a matter of fact, I do." I was ready for what I was not ready for. ;)

   I know what I am meant to do. I feel it inside of me. I am meant to be a wife and stay at home mom. Others may disagree with my descision, but its not their life it is mine. Having this strong feeling, comes the urge to grab ahold of it. I want to marry now. I want kids now. I want to start my future. I am an impatient person if you can't tell. lol God, thankfully is much smarter than me and has made me wait because He knows I haven't been ready to take on all of that...yet.
My main focuses these past few years have been to learn how to become the best wife and mother I can possibly be when the time comes. I have saved myself phisically, spiritually, and emotionally for my husband. I want to give all of my gifts to him. I want to tell him on our wedding night, "Here I am, and all of me is yours. I have saved every gift for you, and now they are all truly yours."
    I have heard some people ask me, "Why do want this now? You're still so young. Just be a kid while you can. " I am, and I have been a kid. I am by no means an adult. Not yet at least. Even when I'm of age, I won't be an adult. I believe I will be an adult when my soul has reached an adult level. You have to learn and go through things to age you. At least that is what I believe. I have pondered on the statement, "Still so young." It's funny to think that in the old days girls were married off much younger than me. What changed? What made it to where people think that I am way to young to marry and take on my beautiful future God has for me? Many I know could touch on the fact that I said, "in the old days." I know the world is changing everyday. We are advancing. We are bettering, in a few ways. Others...not so much. lol But, it being from "in the old days" doesn't make it dumb to still believe in. It worked then, so why not now? I could go on for awhile about this topic, but this is not the intent of this blog post. So, I must stop my girly rambling ;)

Now, to get back to "I Kissed Dating Goodbye." The author's name for those who don't know is Joshua Harris. I just love this man. lol I started this book and devoured it within a matter of days the first time I read it. I probably would've finished sooner, if time had allowed me too. He touchs on everything having to do with relationships. I, being single focused on the "being single" parts mostly, but it all helped me. The most helpful points for me lately, is what I should look for in a husband. I have had the problem of being so dang excited about finding, or my husband finding me that I would look at every guy as a option. I would start by if I found him cute. If he was, I kept on my mission. Sounds silly, right? Well it was. I have no right to do that to them. If you're a young/unmarried female, you may have done the same thing. Josh touchs on this and I can't possibly write all that he has written in the book in this post.lol But, for any young,christian/unmarried maidens out there who may read this. Make sure when you get close enought to someone to even contimplate him as a husband, (because we all know that is the whole point of dating or courting or whatever you choose to do) that you know that he is a Christian, that he is saved, that he respects his mother (this is a great way to see how he'll respect you), as well as his father, and that he can support you. There are so many things to look at. In the book in tell you that marriage is also not something to play around with. It's not always cuddling, and loving nicknames. Mom would tell me, "When you fall for him, you don't ever want him to go home. When you're married, you can't ever send him home." LOL In other words, there will be bumps along the road of marriage I should expect.
Joshua touches on the very important things you need to get past before hand, so you don't add to what you'll already have. He also talks about playing a game. "What matters at fifty?" I'm going to quote his words that really hit me when he talked about this. " When I meet a beautiful girl and I'm tempted to be overly impressed by her extrernal features, I try to imagine what this girl will look like when she is fifty years old. (If this girl is with her mother, this game doesn't take too much imagination.) This girl may be young and pretty now, but what happens when the beauty fades? Does anything within her beckon to me? Is it her character that radiates and draws me toward her, or is it just the fact that her summer dress shows off a little too much of her tan? So what if her feminine outline captures my eye today? When pregnancies add stretch marks and the years add extra punds, will something in this girl's soul continue to attact me?" Wow. I don't know about y'all but that really touched me. "What matters at fifty" is definately a game I'll be playing. lol Most people my age today, have that hunger to fill emptyness they have while they are single. They want what God meant for them to have. But too many are rushing into it blind. I have a few friends that have done that and come out single and heartbroken. There are some that just feel left out. I can't tell you how many of some of my FB friends change their relationship status. I don't even pay attention to half of them anymore, they change so much. One friend was talking to me and said, " Well...*sighs* I'm single again." My answer was, " Oh, I didn't know you had been with someone again. Are you and (so and so) still friends after breaking up?" Her answer was a correction. She was correcting me on who I was refferring too. She was with another guy... I'm amazed at how people can toss around boyfriends or girlfriends. I want to change my FB relationship status (as silly as all of that is) and mean it and not change it back to single ever. I only want to go forward.
      I'm lucky to have a mother who has prepared me for when I meet my husband. I will not be going into it blind like some of my other friends. I will go into it ready. I could say so much more on this blog post, but it's far long enough. (lol) I will end it what Joshua Harris talks about towards the end of the book.He says, " What will I do when I meet this young woman? I think about that often. I don't know exactly what I'll say. Maybe I'll get down on my knees and beg her to spend the rest of her life growing old with me. We can watch our bodies fall apart and together wait for the day when the Master gives us new ones. And when I kiss her on our wedding day, I'll revel in the wife of my youth, but I'll whisper in her ear, "I can't wait to see you when you're fifty." Well said Josh! I don't know if God will send me my husband soon, or make me wait a few more years (Oh please God, no! ^ o ^ hehe ;) But I do know, I'm so very excited.

Oh, and a question to any single readers. Would you wait for him/her? Would you save every gift you have for them? Does your future spouse mean that much to you? Just something to think about.

God Bless! :D

Caught between sleep and awake...

2010-12-13T23:33:00.000-08:00

                  Have you ever felt like you're caught between sleep and awake? You wake up and live your life as you always have, taking each moment as it awaits you. But, you're dissconnected. Whether you mean to be, or not. It is the most strange feeling, almost numbing in a sense...I have experianced it recently.
    I have tried my best to make it a habit to pray. To talk to my Heavenly Father about whatever is happening in my life. Whether the subject is good or bad. I didn't realize it, but I have recently stopped doing that as much as I was. It now is not my first action when I wake up in the morning, or my last one when I go to bed. I have unintentionally closed that part of me off. The part of me that knows I should go to God about any and everything. I just...stopped. It just seems like every issue I have or problem in my life doesn't seem like it's big enough to whine to Him about. I know everything that hurts me or makes me angry, is nothing compared to what some others deal with. So, I keep it locked inside. I close off, even from the one who can fix my problems. I get myself caught between sleep and awake. I try to hush the aggrivations and pains without any help from anyone. It's one of those times you think, "I'm a big girl. My issues could always be worse. Suck it up and move on. Don't bother anybody with it.They don't need anything else negative in their life."
I have learned that your family is your family for a reason. They love you more than others. They understand you more than others. They are your family. God is the head of my family. He is my father, above my father on earth. He loves me more than any others can possibly love me. He understands me more than anybody ever can. He is my Father. I am only so strong. I have to remind myself of that and recently I had to have that pointed out to me. I'm not meant to hold every pain and aggrivation inside of me. No one is that strong. No one...Everyone needs God. I don't know what I'd be without him. The more I think about it...I wouldn't be anything at all. He makes me every inch of who I am, who I was, and who I will be...
Today it was pointed out to me, by my mother that I needed to cry. I tried to think back to the last time I had really cried, and I mean really cried. Not shed a tear from watching a sad movie. A cleansing cry. the answer was, I couldnt't remember when. Today I cried. Today, I really cried. I got down onto my knees and cried and asked God to hold me in His hands and take away the things that have been bothering me. I cried in the arms of my Heavenly Father as He held onto me tightly, calming sobs. Hushing my soul. I felt His love again for me today. His immense, and beautiful love. I am not unbreakable. I can't bear all I wish I could. I need my God. I need my family. They are what make me as strong as I am.
I'm so thankful for them. I am thankful for my beautiful friend who has walked with me during these few weeks while I have been so out of it. The kindness and love he showed, made my days of being "caught between sleep and awake," as bearable as they could ever be. Throwing unexpected smiles in all through out each day. I'm so very thankful for you.
      After today I feel, awake. I am no longer...caught. <3

Thinking...

2010-11-13T16:22:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt like life has stopped right in front of you, refuses to move until you look it right in the eyes, and pay attention to what is goin on and the changes that it's making as each day progresses? I've felt like that recently. You're just walking, minding your own business and it so rudely steps in front of you forcing you to look at it. lol
It amazes me at how we change as we get older, how we learn and grow. Recently mom was talking to me and said," You're getting older. This will be your future. The choices you make will affect you and your future children. Dont get me wrong, what you do will effect us too because we are your family, but in the end it's mostly you. We, your dad and I, are going to do our best to lead you down the right path, to give you the best future you can possibly have." I remember nodding as she spoke, letting her words sink in. "The choices I make"...I replayed those words again and again once I was in my room alone that night. "This will be your future."... It's a scary moment in life, when your age hits you. It's when suddenly, you feel like this person stuck between child and adult. But, closer to adult than child. I honestly think that's the more scary part, being closer to an adult than a child. When you're a child, you have to make choices too, but not huge ones. Your choices are such as, picking what to wear out of your closet for the day(even then maybe not), what color to use next when your coloring a picture, grilled cheese sandwich or chicken strips for dinner at a restaurant? Things you have to choose, such as opinions mostly. Mom and dad always chose the important things. You never had to worry about them. Now, as I stand looking at my life, I see that now it's my turn to make descions. Thankfully not all of them, but some important ones. I'm so excited about my future, but right now it seems like one of those moments you read in a book, or watch in a movie. The part where the person has lived in the same town his/her whole life and now she/he has a destination he/she wants to go to. They pack, plan, get excited, and start down the path they have chosen to go down. I have chosen my path and now I must prepare myself to go down it when it's time. With God and the guidance of my parents, I see my future and it's beautful.
Another thing I realize it how mature you think you are. How ready for anything you think you are and how it's pointed out to you (quite clearly might I add, at least wt me. lol) how immature you really are. That, yet again, has happened to me recently. lol Ya know the moment when you just want to crawl over to your mama and lay your head on her lap while she sings softly and brushes her fingers on your face, gently putting you to sleep? Yeah, those moments. The moments when you just wish you were little and careless again. How silly are we to wish and dream about being older, and then we grow and age, and then wish and dream to go back to how it was! lol Mom will be cutting my sisters food and I'll look over at her and smile and wink. She knows I'm picking, but it amazes me at the little things I miss about being little. The moments you het older and suddenly there is a big peice of meat on your plate and you're like, "I have to cut it? Yes!!!"....*Years pass*..."I have cut it. :/ " lol I have no problem cutting my food, but those are the kinds of moments I'm talking about. In conclusion to this post, I've done alot of thinking. lol Sometimes...to pull away from the world and think (about anything) is one of the best things to do. It helps me clear my head of the little thoughts that usually buzz around and bump into eachother. lol

With love,

Escape....

2010-09-26T00:01:00.000-07:00

I love drawing. It's one of my favorite things to do. It can take me away from my sometimes hectic life and put my stressed soul at peace. There have been many times though, when I can't draw because I have drawing block. Drawing Block is like writers block except for an artist. It's when you sit down in front of your pad of paper with your graphites, or pencils, or charcoals and stare at the clean sheet of paper as if something is going to pop out at you and tell you what to draw. I have had drawing block many times in my life and it is very bothersome. lol I like to have silence when I draw, so I can concentrate. When you live in a house with three sisters, one of them being a very vocal one year old, it tends to be loud quite a bit most of the time. lol Last night I told, no computer time. : / lol So, I thought I'd try to push through the irritating wall keeping me from letting a magical picture come to life through my hands and draw. Last night, thank God, I wasn't blocked. I was flowing freely upon my paper. I can't wait to see the drawing I started when it is finished. There aren't many drawings I've done that make me excited to see the outcome, bt I am with this one! lol I just love how I can escape to another place when I pick up my pencil and begin to draw...

A cleansing rain

2010-09-21T23:53:00.000-07:00

I love waltzing to my bed at night and crawling under my covers and falling to sleep mostly because, I love waking up to a new day. No matter how your day has gone, it won't last forever. Sometimes that can be a downfall if your day has gone well. But, there have been those long days that you experiance that you just can;t wait to fall asleep. You can wait to get the fresh, new day feeling. I love the picture above. I stole it from Google a long time ago. I feel like that at night once I'm warm and under my covers. The day is washed away like a soft warm rain dancing down your skin. Of course there are those day, even though they seem to be few and far between, that you don't want to end. Bt, how can those happy and exciting days get better? How can they progress and how can you grow and bloom without ending the happy days? The answer is that you can't. :) Life isn't always easy, most of the time it isn't but, thank God for the new days. Thank God for the cleansing rain. Thank God for the friends that make you smile and laugh on the days that are hard. I've had friends that just txt me on days when I feel like crying and it's like they just know that I'm not having a good day and they just...make it better. It's hard to explain. It's like God whispers in their ears and tells them that I need them. I'm so thankful for those moments. They are such awesome and beautiful gifts on the days, your soul needs a cleasing rain. Amazing how smiling, laughter, and real friendships can cleanse your soul. :) I'm so thankful for those friends that do that to me. I care about them so much. I'm so lucky!! :D

What you've been through.

2010-09-15T00:10:00.000-07:00

What you've been through has made you who you are. What I've been through has made me who I am. I love God and I know that He loves me. I know that we are all His children. I know that we should all be kind and loving to one another. There have been many, many times in my life where people are just plain rude. Have you ever just gone to the store to pick up something and the person checking you out has the most awful face on? Or have you ever asked someone at a store how they are? Or how their day has been? There have been times when I ask that and get the response, "Good." ...o.O That's it?! I don't even get a, "How are you?" lol I think the truth is that...people don't care how you are. : [ lol They just care if you're having a good or poopy day. It's none of their concern, they don't know you. I find that so very sad. It makes you wonder what;s made them so dang cranky. It almost makes you want to ask them, "Is there something wrong? Are you having a bad day? Is there something I can do?" Of course if you'd do that, they'd look at you as if you've lost your mind. lol But there have been times when I'm tempted to do so. I'm one of those "wierdos" who hates when people are hurting. It's obvious that some of those people are hurting. But, what I don't understand is how they are so stinkin cranky. I mean, all of the hard and stupid stuff that has happened in my life has made me more loving and more feeling. I think of others more and I put myself in their shoes. My grandfather passed away when I was eight almost nine. My parents got divorced when I was six. My biological father is a full blown jerk. I have an awful out of a story book stepmother. We've struggled with money for sometime. That is only a few things, I'll mention. Is that as bad as some peoples lives? Heck no. But, it's not a piece of cake either. Bt, I have a beautiful family that loves me. I have the best mom in the world and the best dad (stepdad) that I could ask for. I have three sisters are healthy that I love to death. I have friends that I love and cherish so very much. Friends that make me smile and laugh at times when I don't even feel like smiling. I have life. What a beautiful gift. I get to wake up and breath. I get to see and hear and feel. Sometimes I forget just how special that gift is. It's like my favorite quote from the movie Titanic. Jack Dawson says, "Well, yes, ma'am, I do. I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up." I love how he sees life. He hadn't anything. He had no money, nothing. He knew what a gift life was. He may not have been real, bt I think what the character belived was right on. lol I know how hard it is sometimes to be or even fake it and act happy. Bt, I'm gonna do my best to be thankful for the special gift of life. Be thankful for my family and my sweet friends. They mean so much to me, and I can't imagine life without them. :)

P.S. If a cashier that is checking you out at the store is cranky, a good tip is to smile a big smile(show your teeth and everything) and tell them to, " Have a happy rest of the day!" lol Maybe you can show them what it's like to smile and be cheerful. lol :)

Crystal clear...

2010-09-10T00:35:00.000-07:00

I haven't really had much to write about lately because our life has been busy and my mind has been cluttered. There have been a few times where I have a little time to write a Blog and I just sit here tapping my fingers on my laptop and nothing comes out. lol So, I thought I'd share one of my favorite pictures as a Blog post. Doesn't it look so delicate and fragile? It almost has a magical look to it. Mmmm, I love it. :)

Beautiful moments...

2010-08-27T23:15:00.000-07:00

          "Give it back," I warn as I fight a smile that is playing at the corners of my mouth as I inched closer to Madison (my eight year old sister).
           " *giggle* Nope." Maddie's eyes twinkled with the excitement of having me, hook line and sinker, playing her new game.
            "Maddie, I'm gonna tell Mama. Give it back."
            "Aw, come on Skye..." my little sister whined.
             "Hand it over lil one." I grin smugly, knowing full and well that once I pulled the "I'm gonna tell Mama" card that the "game" we were playing would be over just as soon as it began.
           "Oh fine. Here you go." Maddie sighed as she placed my little purple i-pod into my hands.
    I leaned over and kissed her forehead and thanked her. She nodds, defeated as she waltzes downstairs. I proudly place my i-pod into my pocket and head downstairs after my sister.

   Those little moments in life are the ones I cherish so very much. The moments where you are trying to look/act your age in front of your little sister and all you want to do is laugh along with her as she thieves your stuff and makes a game out of you tryin to get it back. Life is so tough sometimes and now is by no means the easiest season in our lives, but...When I see my little sisters smile and my ears hear their blessed giggles. I'm taken away from the stresses of our life for a brief moment. I can't imagine not waking up every morning and not seeing my little sisters shining faces. I can't imagine not hearing them bicker back and forth all day long. lol I can't imagine not hearing Autumn say/yell my name a thousand times in an hour. (Seriously though, I'm really thinking of changing my name. What do ya'll think of Leah, or Alex?Oh, it was just a thought *shrug*...jk -lol-) I just can't imagine...Sometimes I wonder just how strange it will feel once I'm married and away from home. I picked at Mama and told her that some day we would just have to own a bunch of land and we could all live together on it. How happy would that be? lol I grew up in a big family. Now I only have three sisters but my aunts, uncles, and cousins were always over as well as my grandparents. It was always loud, bright, and everybody was funny. By the end of the night, once everybody left for their own homes everybody's cheeks were hurting from laughing so much and we were all perfectly stuffed from the yummy foods we had consumed earlier that night. I'm so blessed with those memories. Being seventeen years old now, I've eperienced many moments in life that are just beautiful and I can't wait to experience many more. What I've learned is that no matter how hard life gets, our Heavenly Father always gives us those beautiful moments to pull us through, to hush our flairing tempers, to caress our sadness, to ease our pain. Thank you Lord for supplying me these beautiful moments.

Race ya?

2010-08-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

*Mmmm..* How beautiful is the picture above? Gosh, It makes me wanna jump into the picture and
just take off running....Care to join me?...I'll race ya!~ lol :D

Just another Day...

2010-08-01T00:14:00.000-07:00

"Night girls." I smile as I waltz out of our room and head to get ready for bed. I finsh getting ready for bed by changing into some comfortable pj's and head downstairs to have my computer time. I grab my i-pod and tiptoe downstairs. I fall back onto our comfortable couch, set my lap-top onto my lap and stick a headphone piece in each ear and raise the volume and let Jesse McCartney fill my ears. I sigh and open up the internet, that decides to be generous and work happily, thanfully. lol I hear something and lower the volume of my music to hear an, "Uh oh...Uh Ohhhhh...UH OH!!" I chuckle and hear Maddie tell Autumn to go 'night night.' I assume she dropped her paci and wanted it back. After a few minutes of loud mumbling, all is silent. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I go to Facebook for a wopping 5 minutes to see that not much has changed since the last time I was on, meaning none of my friends had some serious crisis. lol Tonight is one of those nights where I feel really awake. The kind of awake to where you could probably stay up all night long watching movies, kind of night. Although, tom I'll probably groan and cover my head with my blanket when Cyrus (aka~Our three year old Boxer)shakes, puts his heavy paw on me, and decides it's time to get up. O.O...lol
I just feel restless tonight and I can't stay online all night...Mama's orders. lol But, I agree with her, never-the-less. She's definately the smarter out of us two. Sooo, off I go to play some soft music on my handy dandy i-pod. lol Sweet dreams guys....*yawn* Ooo, I yawned, that's a good sign! I better go before the sleepy-ness starts to wherer off! See ya! lol :)

10 Year Wedding Anniversary~

2010-07-30T00:06:00.000-07:00

Today my parents have been married for 10 years! I can't believe it! lol I feel like it was just yesterday when I was watching them dance and whisper 'I love you' s on their wedding day. I am not my father's biological daughter although I am much more his daughter than I am my bioloical father's. I know that, I wasn't really supposed to be at their Wedding but, I was sure blessed to exist and be there when my parents became one. I look back at their Wedding video and see the intense love that jthey ust poured out on eachother. I pray that I find that love. I pray for the kind of love that is so strong and pure as theirs. I have seen my parents work through many tough times. I have seen them push through life's crud and come out, take a deep breath, smile and continue on, hand in hand. I chose the picture (from The Notebook )above for this Blog Post because one, I love the quote and I love the realationship you see between the two characters. I am a girl who loves romance. What girl doesn't? lol But, I've seen that movies are movies and that they aren't real. I have also seen that some parts in the movies are indeed true. :) In the Notebook movie, the character Noah is speaking to the other main character, Aly, tryin to convince her to stay with him because he knows that they belong together. He explains how he know that life will not be easy, and how they're gonna have to work really hard to get through it. But.. he wants to. Noah doesn't want to go through life without Aly by his side, he needs her there through the good and bad times. Life isn't what they portray in most movies, but in this case I think they got it pretty close. I have seen that kind of love with my own eyes and it's beautiful...Happy Anniversary Mama'n Daddy! I've been so very blessed to watch ya'll walk through these ten years and witness your strength and gracefulness. I can't wait to see how ya'll's beauty and love grows in the next ten years. I love you both!!! <3

Frozen...

2010-07-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

        There are times in ones life when they feel frozen. Frozen from fear, pain, anger, shock, or in some cases, they feel frozen because of time. At this moment in my life, I feel frozen. Not frozen as in cold, frozen as in stationary. Frozen as in stuck. I am at the age of being between a child and a woman. I am growing and changing so drastically everyday...But right now, I feel frozen.
     My father has recently joined the Air National Guard and will be leaving in the next few months for Basic Training and then probably Tech School. He'll be away from us for a little over six months. *sigh*...When I first heard this news I was deeply saddened, but I didn't let it hit me. I could feel the news of change that was about to be spoken and I readily held a wall up. I left cracks open in the wall so I could hear the news that was being told to me, but I would not let it affect me how I knew it probaby would. I love my Father (Step father) very deeply and I will miss him terribly. I still remember when I was a little girl before he and my mother married. I had fallen in love with him almost as fast as my Mama had. My dear mother was trying to make everything right for me and was tryiing to make things work with my Biological father. (I can only imagine the strength it took to do that for me..Thank you Mama for going through all of that.) I don't remember much from that time, except that I missed Tyler more than anything.~ (Tyler=StepDad) ~Dad had given me a Princess Barbie (that my Biological father decided to throw away behind my back. I found out later) and all I had left from the Barbie was it's little purple crown. I carried that crown around and held it close to my heart constantly thinking of my future Step-Dad. I prayed and prayed for God to send Tyler back into mine and my Mother's life. Thank the good Lord, he did! I'm so, so very thankful for that...
So many memories have flooded back like that one has, recently. Now the wall I put up is crumbling down. Now I start to cry at the thought of his departure. I know he must leave. I know it's what's best. But...I almost can't bare to think about it. But...I will be strong for my family. I will not make this any tougher on any of them. I will be strong for my sisters and for my mother. I trust that God will hold us in His precious hands and help my family and myself as we enter this new Season in our lives, this very different season...
At the present time, we are all frozen, my family and I. We are frozen, waiting to hear the date that Dad is to leave for the six months. Frozen in this season in our life. We're frozen like the flower above. We are still alive and you can see our color through the ice that covers and hold us still where we are. We are stuck in this fog as we wait and prepare for the massive change that our family is fixing to face...I pray that the Good Lord speeds up time for us and calms our impatient hearts and melts the ice that holds us captive in the season we are in. We are a strong family and have made it through many tough times and I know we'll make it through this one! But, I am so very ready, as I'm sure the flower was above, for our life to open it's new petals and bloom. But, at the moment we are frozen. At the moment, we are waiting. We are waiting like the ice caged rose above, for the sun to melt the ice so we can began our new future! Thank you God, for our beautiful future! I can hardly wait....I dream of the day in the near future when we see and feel the sun begin to melt the ice...the ice that is keeping us frozen in the present time.
   Thank you God for my family! Thank you for our beautiful future! Thank you for sending my Dad~(Step-Dad)~to my Mother and myself! Thank you for sending us to Idaho! Thank you for so much...Thank you for loving us as you have...<3

Just a pic. :)

2010-07-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

I found this pic on Google and wanted to share it. Isn't it pretty? :)

Fun Day with Friends!

2010-06-23T16:23:00.000-07:00

A few days ago I was blessed enough to milk a goat *does the happy dance*when I visited a friends house. How awesome is that?! lol Thank you Callie for teaching me how! :D

Then I sat on a pretty horse for awhile, while my friend guided him around. I think I fell in love with horses at that moment. I tried not to look at the horse too long. lol I would've tried to sneak him home with me, buuuut...I haven't the room. :( Tis why I need land! lol

Hey...who's the little person sitting behind me? Haha~Audie is such a cutie!..Afterwards I just hung out with my friends and finished off a very happy day! I pray that God blesses my family (and myself in the future) with lots of land and animals. I was born to live in the country! lol Thank you God, for my future farm happy blessings~ Cuz, after that day...I'm wanting horses and goats and chickens and oh-so-much fertile land! Oooo, I can't wait! lol :D

I just need to glue it onto my hands!

2010-06-15T15:03:00.000-07:00

I've realized recently that I just need to glue my Bible onto me. Somehow, somway. Maybe tape would work better. Hmm. If you think I'm kidding, I'm not. lol When times get tough the first thing that comes to mind isn't ever to go get my Bible. Why is that? Why isn't it the first thing I go grab when I'm stressed. Why don't I go get my Bible when I'm bored? I'm not honestly sure of the answer. All I know is that I need my Bible and I need to know and do what's in it. So much has been going on here lately and yet it seems like life has decided to move like a turtle. A very tired and old turtle. A turtle with gray hair it's so old. *chuckle* (if any turtles happen to read this, please don't be offended if you don't have hair. I was trying to get my point across. Thank you.) I read a Blog post on the Blog, "While I'm Waiting" today. The guy was talking about being content. Being content with your life and with yourself. I've a had a large problem being content with everything that's going on in my life. I'm not afraid to admit it. It's something I've prayed about. The picture above is one I found in the happy land of Google. lol I've felt like that girl more times than I can count. She's holding on to Him with all she has. She loves Him, she needs Him. I honestly love how Jesus is smiling. He's happy that she loves and needs Him like she does. He's happy that she's chosen to love and need Him. I'm that girl. I love and need Jesus. I have and always will. I'm going to make it a priority to read my Bible more. It's important. It's called The Life Giving Word. I need that life within me. I want God's love to pour out of me. I want His light to shine through me. That's my goal, now and forever. Sooo......where's the glue???...*giggle* :D Have a happy Tuesday!

Dance with me.

2010-06-10T13:58:00.000-07:00

*Dance with me...* What beautiful words. As I've grown I've started to see life as a dance. Sometimes it's low, and sometimes it's fast. Nevertheless, a dance. I watch my parents love eachother everyday since I can remember. I've watched the stresses life has thrown at them and I've watched them come through. I've watched them come through even stronger and more beautiful than before. It's sort of funny the way I've looked at my Mom and Dad. Most of the time, they're just Mom and Dad. I don't often think of them as Kristy and Tyler. I don't often think of them as once being my age. I'm not sure why, I just don't.
Yesterday Mama pulled out some letters and pictures from when her and Dad (meaning my stepfather) were first together, just married, and awhile after their marriage took place. I got to read letters that Dad had written to Mom, and letters Mama had written to Dad. I was in utter awe of the love those pieces of paper held within them. It was incredible. As I read some of them I felt as if I were in a love story I had read long ago. I look at my parents now and see what bonds them together. I see their love and their friendship. I see that they loved eachother from the moment they met. I see that, that love is not just in movies. The movies have it right. The movies just tend to leave out the things that truly bond the couple together. I've learned as I've watched and listened, that marriage is not the easiest. It's not what they portray it to be, in most romantic movies. It's more. It's, as my Mama always tells me, marrying your best friend. I've always heard while watching movies and other love things that they talk about soul mates. What pretty words. lol I mean, how happy does that sound? It sounded pretty good to me. But, if you really think about it. Why would God make a person just for you. I think that's why there are probably so many couples getting divorced nowadays. They want there Soul Mate. I don't belive one exists. I belive our loving Father has something different but, just as happy. He has Life Mates for us. Life Mate...I read those words in a book recently and they made such sense to me. God will not send me a perfect person, made just for me, that I will never struggle with in life. He's made me a Life Mate. Someone to walk my life with until I get Heaven, and I'll be the same to him. I won't be some perfect match for my husband, and just because we'll be together, doesn't mean that nothing will ever be wrong. Like I said, the romantic, love movies have some of it right, but not all of it. Until God sends me my husband or me to him, I will wait and learn to be the absolute best Life Mate I can possibly be. So here I wait, practicing my dancing until I hear the words, "Will you dance with me?" ...:)

La la la...:)

2010-06-06T21:11:00.000-07:00

I love the place I visit when I listen to good music. I'm taken to a beautiful world that's nearly indescribable. Music can help calm me down or get me hyped up and roarrrring to go! lol I have been raised around musically talented people and for that I'm blessed. In my opinion, music is a gift that can take us away from the stresses of our daily lives. I know I've written a few Blog posts saying just how much I love my i-pod, but...boy do I love my i-pod! lol I mean, that little thing helps me listen to music whenever/wherever I want. Such a nifty lil thing! lol Well, I'm off to finish having my computer time. :D

(BTW), isn't the picture above pretty? You'll never believe where I found it. Google. *nodding* Google rocks! lol

A moment...

2010-05-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

My heart holds so very much. My heart holds love for so many...Life is so very overwhelming sometimes and without the ones that love me, I can't imagine how difficult it would be...

Today I had a moment to myself, it was a moment of silence to think. It was very nice. lol I took my happy little purple i-pod and went outside. I waltzed past the deck and stepped onto the soft, green, cool grass. It felt good on my bare feet. I walked around the backyard for a bit and then I laid down upon the grass and turned my i-pod volume up. I looked up at the sky and was suddenly struck by just how small I really was. I was struck my just how big the world was. I was struck by so many things at that moment. I appreciate that time today. I was so lucky to have a little bit of time to lay back and just think. I thought about my family, the love I have for them and my friends. I thought about how blessed I am to be so healthy. I thought about my future husband and the beautifful family I pray I'll have. I thought about how much I love my i-pod. lol :) It was a very calming moment of my day. Thank you, God for giving me a moment to see your beauty and think about my past, present, and future....:)

OoOo, that's pretty.

2010-05-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

Isn't this just such a lovely picture? Mmm, I think so. lol I just had to share this pretty lil picture with ya'll. It tis another dream car of mine. :D Yes, if you're asking yourself if most of my dream cars are Mustangs, then you are, indeed, correct. I would like a Mustang in every color! (Except the ugly colors. lol) JK I just want a Black, Dark Red, and a Yellow Mustang all (maybe not the black one) with racing stripes. ;) Hey, I know that's not very realistic, but I can dream, right? lol Mmm, and what a beautiful dream it is. *Sigh* lol Nite readers~

Thursday Night Thoughts...

2010-05-20T23:18:00.000-07:00

*Shhhh* I whisper as I hush the baby. I'm eager to escape my dark room and have my Blog time. I know I must hurry before the sleepy haze overcomes me as well as my drowsy little sisters. I brush my fingertips over her cheek for the last time as I watch her heavy eyelids close. I let out a deep breath I had unknowing been holding in. I stand up slowly, trying to avoid the inevitable popping sounds I make as I move. I look over to see that none of the tiny ones had so much as twitched. I tiptoe out of the unconsious room and make it to the bathroom. I take my contacts out before I forget, and put them safely into there little plastic holder. I glance up at the mirror and make a face. I groan and try to push the vision of my unkemp hair and broken out face aside. Today was not a day I felt the least bit pretty. Those days stink. lol :P I slip downstairs to where my happy lil Laptop awaits. Mom knows I'm gonna Blog, so she so kindly has it awake and ready for me. I love my Laptop. lol (I need to find fun stickers for it...hmm...) Before I decide what I'm going to Blog about I head over to my Mama's Blog to read her newest post. No surprise, but it brings me to tears. Maybe it's because I'm emotional, or maybe it's because my realationship with my mother is so strong. Nevertheless, it made me cry. I sat there at my Laptop, pondering. For a moment it was on her Blog post, then it moved on to...everything. Isn't it amazing how that happens? One moment your mind is on one thing and then, you're completely off on your original mind subject. That was what happened to me tonight. I thought about how much I loved my Mama. I thought about how lucky I was to have my family. I thought about how a friend had made me laugh so very hard today, when I was feeling kinda gray. I was having such a blah kinda day and that friend had me smiling in no time flat. I was honestly amazed at how quickly my mood had changed. I'm so thankful, for that. Thank you God, for giving me such beautiful friends in my life.
As I've grown, I've realized that good friends are very hard to come by. There have been times in my life where I have been hurting and practically in tears over something and I've gone to a "friend", and they weren't there for me. They called themselves my friend but, a friend is someone who loves you, talks to you, and gives you one of their most prescious gifts...time. A true friend will give you there time. Time to wipe away your tears, time to laugh with you, time to just...be your friend. lol It hurts me so deeply when I meet someone I hope to become friends with and they prove to be otherwise. I pray that I am and will be a good friend to all those whom I meet. I pray that they can count on me to share their tears and the musical sound of their laughter. After all, isn't that why we're here? To be friends and love one another? Just a thought that was floating around in my mind, with all the others. lol Well, I'm going to try to go get sme sleep. Hopefully I can silence my buzzing thoughts. lol Goodnight, Sweet Dreams readers. :)

A Little Taller.

2010-05-12T20:51:00.000-07:00

    When I was little I always wanted to be just a little taller. A little taller to reach something, or a little taller to stand higher than someone. I remember this one time when my cousin took one of my dolls and wouldn't let me have it back. I couldn't have been older than 7. He ended putting it on top of a high shelf, and he knew very well, I couldn't reach it. I remember jumping up and down, stretching my fingers out as far as they'd go. But, I wasn't tall enough. Thankfully, right before I lost my temper with my aggrivating, pick happy, cousin, (LOL) my Mama walked into the room and demanded he give me my doll back and stop picking at me. He chuckled and apologized as he handed me my doll back. I stood there for awhile, angry that I wasn't just a little taller. If I would've been, I could've easliy snatched my doll back. But, those few darn inches weren't there to help me out.
   I remember another time when my uncle, who lives in New York, was coming home to visit. I was so excited! I waited by the window until I saw the car pull up to the house. I ran to the door, opened it and gave him a bear hug. When I stepped back I saw that I was almost his height. lol He's not a very tall man but it was so funny, how shocked I was to see how much I'd grown. We both stood there for a minute and he told me, " When did you grow so much, Honey? *chuckle*" Funny how you can wait for something for so very long, and then you don't even realize it when you get it. I'm still a very short person. lol But, I like my height. I'm probably about 5'2. I still have to reach for things on my tippy toes and I still have people stand high over me. But, (finally) I'm happy with my height. I don't want to be a tall person. I want to be me. :) The short, spunky girl that now has no urge to be "just a little taller." ;D

  Blessing to you guys! Short and Tall! lol :)

Little Sisters. o.O

2010-05-11T16:28:00.000-07:00

                          (This picture was taken awhile back, but I thought it was fitting for this post. lol That's my sister Maddie in the background)
          I have about tweny mintutes before the dryer buzzs and I have to take out the cloth diapers. I tap my fingers on my leg as I walk into the kitchen and pour my self a glass of Sweet Tea. After the first sip I realize just how thirsty I am, and I guzzle the rest. I put my glass in the sink and stand there for a moment clueless as to what I was going to do before the dryer buzzed. "Wooo, Yikes!...The baby stinks, Skye!" my eight year old sister yells from the living room. I sigh, chuckle and hurry to change the baby's diaper. The baby, on the other hand, has other plans and doesn't have an urge one to have a her diaper changed. It was a fight just to keep her hiney on the ground as she arched her back and screamed at me to let her go. lol Trying my best to make her happy (and not get poop on myself. lol ) She finally had a fresh and clean diaper. Not even getting a chance to breath after my battle with my one year old sister, I hear the familliar sound of bickering. It's just me and the girls that are at home. Mama and Dad were out getting groceries.  I turn around to find a overly-dramatic eight year old looking like steam would start coming out of her ears, and a red faced pixie like three year old who was speaking angry words with her eyes. Before I even ask what in the world happened to make them both so angry with eachother, I hear Autumn wobble to my side and say with a verys serious exspression on her face, "Ticky ticky ticky, boop boop teboop." I suddenly burst out laughing at this funny little persons comment to the bickering taking place before us. My frustrated sisters looked up at me in confusion as I laughed heartily at the little comedian beside me. They weren't amused. lol I composed my self and asked them what had started their bad moods. After an hour long explanation (ok, so it wasn't that long but it felt like it. lol ) Everyone seemed to be in a happy mood again. I decided to turn on some music to brighten the house up a bit. It was working nicely! The girls were laughing and dancing around. When out of the blue, *BUZZZZ!*...." Oi. " I chuckled. That buzzer is so annoying.Why doesn't it make a happy sound to let you know what's in the dryer is dry? I'm not sure what sound it should make, but not that awful *BUZZ.*  lol ;)
    Later that day there was more fussing, laughing, crying, and bickering. There were times when I wanted to yell, "Where's my big Brother/Sister?!?" lol Sometimes I wish I weren't the eldest. That's a lot of responsiblity. lol Then there are other times when I feel so very honored to be the eldest of three beautiful, loving, and incredible sisters. I'm so blessed to have them in my life and I wonder what other little angels God will bless our family with in the next few years...perhaps a little brother! lol ;D...

I love my little sister!<3

Red Rover, Red Faces?

2010-05-04T13:49:00.000-07:00

Day before yesterday, we went to church which was held at the park. It was very windy and very cold. lol I thought I'd be blown away a few times. ;) I had my hair put up and it looked good. :D But... after a few hours it was in a pony tail. *shrug* lol After the service everyone kinda went off and did there thing. I talked to some friends and we went to swing on the swings. I love swinging! lol One of my favorite things to do when I'm swinging is to lay all the way back and watch the sky as I swing. It's like I'm flying...only upside down. lol As the day went on, we all ate. There were hamburgers and hotdogs, etc at the park for us all to eat. I brought Lemon Squares for everyone. They were really good, but if it weren't for Mama they wouldn't have gotten out of the eight by eight. lol Thanks Mom! ;)
Then I was asked to play "Red Rover." I was clueless as to what that was but I said, "Ok!" lol Thankfully, that day I decided to wear my jeans and tennis shoes. ;) They explained how to play, and the game was on! lol I had a blast. One of the times I was called I was suprised to see Dad running at me from the side. He tackled me! Hahaha. But, I was strong and pulled him down with me. lol It was fun. Then when we all got home we all sat down and looked at eachother and what did we see? Six red faces. We all were sunburnt. lol Sadly, we were all in a bit of pain, esp. the lil baby. But who would've thought that you would get sunburnt with it being like 40 degrees and windy? Well, it's possible. lol Good new is.. I think mine is turning into a tan! *Whoop Whoop* lol I look much better with color. Even if it has a faint red glow but hopefully that'll go away soon. lol ;D

Wordless Wednesday

2010-04-28T19:25:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...I'm not so sure she too happy with how her hair came out. O.o *wink*

Rush in a dream...

2010-04-27T17:50:00.000-07:00

Last night I had this incredible dream. It was something like this...I felt the softest green, plush grass beneath my feet as I ran in no paticular direction, magnificent trees surounding me. I was just running. Running off steam, or frustration perhaps. I inhaled deeply through my open lungs, breathing in a sweet aroma. I closed my eyes and picked up speed. I left every problem behind me. Every worry or pain was far away now and I wasn't going back to retreave any of it. As I ran the grass beneath my feet became moist. Confused, I came to a stop in my running and caught my breath. All the massive trees that once surrounded me were back aways and I was standing on seemed to be a plush plain. I was suddenly pulled out of my thoughts to hear a loud shhh-ing sound that was coming from directly in front of me. I took a deep breath and smelled water. Intrigued by this curious discovery I started walking forward. The farther I went the more wet the grass got and the more loud the Shh-ing sound became. I walked faster until I was running again. My feet made a slapping sound as they hit the sopping grass. I looked down to see the grass almost completely covered with water. Almost instantly I felt as if I was being pulled in the direction I was originally going. Like a magnet, I was being drawn to what laid ahead. There was a brief moment where I wondered if moving forward was a bad idea, but I pushed it away quickly. I was sprinting as fast as my legs would carry me now. The loud shhh-ing noise was the only thing I could hear. I stopped instanly and felt my heart rise into my throat as I found there to be no more land to run on, no more anything. There was just a drop to the bottom. The bottom of a Waterfall. My breathing was erratic, my heart felt like a drum. Without another thought...I lept off the Waterfall. The rush felt so real. I woke up from my dream breathing fast and forgetting where I was. It didn't feel like a dream. It felt ever so real. Very rarely do I ever wake up from a dream and remember it cleary the next day, unless the dream was bad. But this...rush filled dream was, incredible. Maybe it was God answering my prayers when I told Him I wished to do something exciting. lol (We've had to be kinda cooped up with sickness and such) Anywho, I thought I'd share my rush filled dream with you guys. :) Who knows what I'll dream about tonight. ;D Maybe I'll dream of a Ball. A Ball where I'm in a elegant gown and there are many charming young men to dance with. lol ;)

Musical monday ♪♫•¨•¸♥ •*•♫♪

2010-04-26T17:02:00.000-07:00

Today's Musical Monday's suject is...*drum roll*...."Kristy Quinn" (aka My Mama *wink*)
My mother was a perfessional singer for quite some time, but she gave it up to take care of her kids. Being a performer at heart, I know the struggle she must have gone through while and after she made up her mind to be a Stay at Home Mom. I admire her for that. Now I'm thankful to see what others don't. I get to see a beautiful brown haired, green eyed, (I call her eyes "illusion eyes" cause they look blue half the time) barefoot, cajun, God lovin, young woman who has an amazing love of music. Certain memories I'll cherish forever, like the times when Mama and I are cooking dinner and I put on music and we sing together. My mother's voice has made me cry more times than I can count. God has truly blessed her with an awesome voice. I asked (was very close to begging. hehe) Mama to be my subject for this weeks "Music Monday" And she said she'd sing for me. Yes! lol So off we went to record a raw version of Hank Williams= Jambalya. Thank you Mama!!! Click on the link below to view the recording. She's really good! ;D I don't know how to attach it to where you the video is already on here. I still have lots to learn. lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XBmc2O4aP4

These were taken on Autumn's B Day. She's such an amazing Mom/performer.

Through the Storm...

2010-04-25T21:23:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had so many thoughts going through your head that they're like bees buzzing around constantly hitting into eachother. It's like you can't grab one thought and focus on it without the others bothering you. I'll be 17 this next August, and I can't belive it. Sometimes I feel like the little girl that would wake up and hurry downstairs to have coffee milk and watch Barney, and other times I feel like I'm older than many I know. Last night after my sisters fell asleep I remembered that I had (again) forgotten to take my contacts out. (Yes, I know that's not good. lol ) I tiptoed over to my bathroom and took the "little helpful pieces of plastic" out of my eyes. When I was finished I glanced up to see a girl that had changed in more ways than I can count. Her cheek bones had changed, her eyes had changed, her lips had changed, there were so many changes. I stepped back and focused on this young woman who was looking back at me. Her eyes were filled with melodies, unexplainable music, filled with love, life, and a hunger for what God has planned for her. I touched my face. The girl had grown, she had new found curves, she was becoming a woman. (Boy, that's a weird feeling lol ) I smiled and saw my dimples, they were the same. I looked deep into my eyes, they were the same. *Sigh* It was nice to see things that hadn't changed. lol Then there are the things that I'm very happy have changed. The girl in the mirror had changed inside too. She had grown and learned so very much. So much that made her such a better person. I thank the Good Lord for giving me my Mama to teach me how to be. She has taught me how to control my cajun temper, watch my attitude, care for others before myself, to love with all I have, to please God before anyone else, and so very much more. I love her so much! I pray I can be as good a mother/ wife as her! <3*says a little prayer* ;)
I love the picture I found above for so many reasons. For one, it's just beautiful, two, I love how through the rain...no, through the storm you can see the magnificent light. You can see the good that's coming. I'm ready for that. I'm ready to see the amazing light through the storm. I have faith that it's coming soon! Last night I laid in my bed and decided (couldn't sleep and was craving chocolate. lol ) just to tell God that I love Him, so I did. I told him how thankful I was for everything He'd given me. I thanked Him for sending down His Son for me. I thanked him for my husband. I thanked Him for all of our health, and my friends. I thanked Him for Life. For the first time in a good while I felt at peace. I was tired and He gave me peace and the most happy thing happened, I fell asleep. Easily, gently, I fell asleep. I'm so thankful for so many things and I'm excited about the gifts our Heavenly Father is going to give His waiting children. *Praise the Lord, for He is great and loving! Praise His beautiful and Holy Name!* Thank you dear Lord for loving me as you do. It means so much to me.

New look! :D

2010-04-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

Ok, sooo the picture above has absolutely nothing to do with my post, at all. But, I was looking through some random pictures I had saved over time and I just wanted to share it with you guys. lol Isn't it a cool picture/beautiful picture? :)

Anywho, I've been wanting to make a Blog Button ever since I got onto Blogger and just recently a friend told me how too. So I sat a with my lap top and was fixing to take on the challenge when I suddenly thought, "I need to change my Blog around." *nodding* So, I went on the "oh so painful" background hunt and finally found the one I have now. *wipes forhead* ;) That's some hard work. lol Then I decided that I didn't like my music that would play on here as much as I did when I added it, sooo I changed that as well. The end result...*does the happy dance* I like it! *giggle* So, what's my next move? Find the time to make a...Dum dum dum, DUM...Blog Button. lol ;D

Have a Blessed day!

New Background...hmm

2010-04-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

I am gonna make a Blog Button but I thought, " I think I need a different background. *nodd*" I'm getting sort of tired of the one I have. I think I need something...brighter! Something more Springy! Hmm...Light Pink? Maybe brighter...Yellow?...*Shakes head* Maybe not that bright. lol Something with flowers, perhaps?..*bite lip*...I'm gonna have to think about it. Any suggestions are welcome. ;D

Musical monday ♪♫•¨•¸♥ •*•♫♪

2010-04-12T13:45:00.000-07:00

I was thinking of something new to do on here. I was online yesterday and listening to my music (I have music on my Facebook profile) and one of my friends was talking about a new song they were listening too.I love music! I love to listen to new songs whether they be jumpy or nice and soft. I'm always walking around singing something new. Often, Dad hears me say, " I have a new song I'd love to have on my ipod. *Big grin*" ( Dad is the song ~put-er on-er~ for my ipod lol) So anyway, I thought that on Modays I could write about something having to do with music cause I love it so very much. So todays musical topic is...

Josh Turner. ;D He is one of my favorite country singers. I love to listen to his music. His newest song is "Why don't we just dance." It is a very cute song. Never heard it? Look it up. It's very worth it! Well, gotta run. Got to fiinish my day so I can take time to make a "Blog button"! lol

Find me if you can

2010-04-11T21:58:00.000-07:00

" A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man has to seek Him in order to find her."

I found this quote a little while ago and wanted to share it with those who had never heard it. :) I know that I'm going to do my best to get so lost in God that a man has to seek Him in order to find me! lol Well, It shouldn't be too hard for me to get deeply lost in God since I'm already lost in Him and I have no sense of direction. *chuckle* ;) Hope my future husband has a good sense of direction and a burning love for Him cause I'm planning to get as lost as I can get in my Heavenly Father! LOL ;)

Nite everyone~

Blood relations...

2010-04-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

I paced back and forth in my room. I closed my eyes and concentrated on the swooshing noise my skirt made as I walked. My stomach twisted and turned as I waiting for my cell phone to ring. The conversation I was avoiding for months was about to happen. I had to answer when he called, I had no choice. But everything inside me screamed, wanting to run away from the situation. I hated it. My biological father was about to call. I had so much I wanted to say, so much that needed to be said. There were so many words that I knew would go in one ear and out the other. My heart speeds up right as my phone rings. I looked at my phone and had the brief thought of throwing it at the wall. I sighed and answered the phone.
I have never had a good relationship with my Biological father but over the years, it's gotten worse. My eyes have opened to the person he is and always was. The person who had me waiting at the window with my bag packed and ready to go to his house for the weekend, when I was little. The person that didn't show and left me in tears. The person who would lie to me and get caught in the lies. The person who has caused me pain for years. I had told him more times than I could count how I felt. I'd told him how he wasn't a good father, but yet here I was, fixing to have the same conversation with him...again. This time I wasn't the little girl whos knees buckled everytime serious converstaions got up and her father confused and mixed her words. I was now an almost 17 year old girl who was angry, hurt, and had God in her heart and head. I could now have comebacks for his spears that blocked or shot them down. Comebacks or retorts that weren't disrespectful. But, no one has ever caused such fire in me as he does. Never have I wanted to cuss as I do when we argue. I know it's wrong, I know God doesn't like it. Sometimes as humans...we falter. I prayed before I spoke to him. I prayed long and hard. I prayed that God would put a filter on my mouth that kept all the junk I wanted to release, inside. That He did. I didn't cuss once, nor was I disrespectful. Thank you God!
I have siblings that live with my Biolgical father. I haven't seen or talked to them in months. I loss track of how many. Maybe a year... I brought that particular thing up during the phone call. I was crying so hard, I was shaking. There is a part of me that never wants to speak to him again. Ever. But, sadly there is the little girl who wants her daddy to be what she needed. The Daddy she never had. My father wants to "Start over" again. I honestly don't know what to think. I'm tired of being hurt. But, before the night was over I was able to speak to my 4 siblings. The feeling I felt when I heard their voices was indescibable...I'm not sure what will happen with this whole thing. My father claims he wants to be what he was supposed to be all along. That we need to work together. But when you've heard lie, after lie, after lie. Do you belive the next words that come out? Do you trust them? I'm not really sure what to do. I want nothing more than to have a good realationship with my Biologcal father but, he's never wanted it bad enough for it to actually happen. I have a year and a half. It might be a little less actually, until I'm 18. I can't wait. Then, I will not be forced to talk to him. I hate being forced.
Thankfully when I was little I was given an angel. An angel to take the place of what I didn't have. I was sent...Dad. Someone who loved me as his own. Someone who was there whenever I needed him. He really has been like an angel. Not what I was supposed to have. Instead he is something much better. He has been everything I ever wanted in my biological father.

I can't count how many of my tears Dad's shirts have soaked up over the years. I met him when I was 4 so...I'd say ALOT. lol Tears I shed because of my biological father. Tears that Dad said would be soaked up with his "crying shoulder." He'd say that there was a special shoulder to cry on. My goodness, I love that man..lol...The wounds my biological father caused and keeps causing will never go away. They'll lesson over time, I'm sure....I have alot of praying to do with this whole thing. I'd appeciate any prayers to help me to deal with this...I don't know what to call it. lol That'd mean alot to me. :)
I just know...I'm so very lucky to have a Dad, an angel who's always and I know will always be there. No matter what...I'm not related to my Dad by blood. But then again...blood relations mean nothing...At least not to me. ;)

Thank you Dad! I love you more than you'll ever know!!!

Coming back 2 life!

2010-04-07T21:39:00.000-07:00

I'm sooo excited! I can see Spring. We've all been sick here, so we've all been cooped up. I'm ready to be done with this sickness. I'm ready to be outside! I'm ready to lay on the soft warm grass and feel the radiant sun kiss my skin. I'm ready to eat BBQ outside on the deck while the radio's playing. Today we felt well enough to leave the house for a bit. I was thrilled to see everything changing and coming back to life. The grass was green and trees were starting to bloom. Everything that was once sleeping to avoid the harsh winter was waking up! I saw life returning to the dead lookin plants. It was beautiful. Where I used to live in Texas, didn't have pretty trees or really green grass. So this is still very new for me. This is very exciting. :D There is an ornimental pear tree in our front yard. ( I had prayed to God to let us have a pear tree where ever we were gonna move. I forgot the tiny detail of having the pear tree having edible fruit. LOL God's sense of humor.) I can see the buds on the tree now. There are even some blossoms. If you're quite enough, you can hear the buzzing of the bees. It's all so beautiful. God is so amazing. I'll take pictures when more blossoms appear. :) Oh, and a few weeks ago I got to see/touch my first cherry tree! How awesome!?! *chuckle* Ok, remember I'm from Houston Texas. ;) The picture above is one I got off of Google. Maybe one day when I have my own home, I'll be able to take my own pictures of cherry blossoms. The Lord is so incredible...He astounds me everyday. I'm so blessed to enjoy His breathtaking gifts. :D

Thank you Father for sending Spring!

Wordless Wednesday

2010-04-07T15:40:00.000-07:00

My smallest sister, Autumn. The prettiest lil flower I've ever seen. lol ;D

Happy Easter!!!

2010-04-04T13:38:00.000-07:00

* Wooo Whooo!* It's the anniversary of the day Our Good Lord Resurrected! I just love Easter. I always have. When I was little, it was the day the Easter Bunny made a special visit. lol A visit filled with sweet treats. Now today, I've been blessed to have a loving mother and father who had a beautiful basket for us girls still! When I was Catholic, Easter was the day when I could have whatever it was I had given up for Lent. In my case, it was something like gum, cream soda, or pickles! What a marvelous day. lol The Lord came back from the dead, I get chocolate, and whatever I gave up for Lent. lol ;) The depressing 40 days were over. I was always a very different little girl. I took Lent very seriously. I couldn't be truly happy because I know that Jesus suffered massively. Knowing how much He suffered made me giving up my silly little thing(whateveer it may have been) seem like nothing. But when Easter came,Oh boy! lol The house would always get so lively. The aroma of the amazing foods made my mouth water! The only thing that helped me wait to eat late Lunch or Dinner was the candy I was constantly sneaking into my eager mouth. LOL Well, *stick a mini Cadbury egg in my mouth* I'd better get off here. *chuckle* Have a very Happy Easter Ya'll!
Blessing in abundance~

Good Friday...

2010-04-01T18:32:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is Good Friday. Good Friday has always been a very sad day to me. It always felt right when it rained on that day. It is the anniversary of the day Our Lord was tortured and killed. It is the anniversary of the day that the world was shown ultimate love by Jesus. I am in awe every time I think of the suffering He went through for us, suffering that no other man could've withstood. It amazes me to know that Jesus had the power to stop it all...but He didn't. Something I had sort of always thought was, " He was God though...He was strong. It had to have made it a little bit easier to suffer the way He did...well, Because He's God. Right?" Mama was reading out of the Bible to us earlier and she read out of Mark Chapter 14. She read and focused on a few certain verses. The verses she read and focused on showed that Jesus was indeed human. That He, at times, was weak. Mark 14:35 "And He went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him." He fell on the ground. He was so scared and overwhelmed, He fell on the ground. Then He prayed that what was about to happen, wouldn't happen. In the verse above it He tells His Apostles how he feels. Mark 14:34" And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch."

Another thing I've thought of is the immense pain that Jesus' mother must have felt. To watch her baby suffer the way He did. Standing there and not being able to stop any of it. She knew it was God's will but, I'm sure that didn't make it any easier because...that was her son that was being hurt...

I think it's important to focus on the sufferings of Jesus sometimes. Without those sufferings I'd have no chance at getting to Heaven. But, just to know that someone loves me that much...it's just... overwhelming.

:P

2010-03-30T19:53:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I feel sooo awful. This is by far the yuckiest I have ever felt. Mom and Dad had to take Autumn to the Hospital because her breathing was becoming to fast. The Doctor said she had R.S.V. Thankfully they caught it in the early stages. :) She didn't even have to stay in the hospital. We are very blessed! Well, I'm tired and can't concentrate so...Night guys. :)

Prayers are much appreciated! Blessings!

Sneezing and Coughing and Headaches, Oh My!

2010-03-26T17:40:00.000-07:00

The words that have been said repeatedly in this house have been, " I don't feel good..." Everyone except Mama and Dad are sick here. I think Mama is followin close behind us though :/ *Not Mama, please not Mama!* lol I can't stand it when anyone is my family is sick but, when Mama's sick, well...it's just depressing. lol If anyone knows my Mama then they know that nothing can ever knock her down. So, she just works through the pain or annoyance of the situation. Man, I can learn from her every day. :) Boy, this sickness has really knocked me down on my hiney. lol Oh, and the poor baby...The poor little thing is sick too. :( Isn't it just wrong when babies are sick? I mean the tiny things can't blow their noses or tell you exactly what, or where it hurts. But, thank the Good Lord for Bulbys! LOL (or however you spell that. lol ) Coughing, sneezing,and horrible headaches. This sickness is icky and I'll be happy when it's gone. :P lol It makes you thankful for clear sinuses and a clear chest! That, and a throat that isn't sore. I know I'll be thankful when I'm back to my normal health! lol Until then ...I must find my tissues...LOL ;)

Blessings and great health to you guys~

Promise Ring...

2010-03-20T18:32:00.000-07:00

There are many times in my life when I've been reminded of things. One of my favorite things to be reminded of is that I have a husband somewhere out there and that I'm made for him. I am reminded whenever I look down at my left hand at my promise ring. I'm a girl, I love romance. lol I love to think about the gift God has given to the married couples out there. The gift to love the other with everything they have. There are many times as I get older when I can see myself in the future as a wife/mother. Times like when I'm cooking dinner, doing laundry, rocking my sister to sleep, or tending to one of my sisters in the middle of the night. I'm thankful for these and other times because when the time comes for me to marry and have children of my own I won't be as scared. lol ;) When these times occur I think of just how frightened my mother must have felt being pregnant with me at age 16. Being pregnant without being explained how life was fixing to be like or what her job would be like. Her not having the partner she deserved. I've sometimes tried to put myself mentaly into that mind frame. I've tried to imagine what she must have felt but when I begin to even get close to what she must have felt, I shudder. I'm am so thankful that when I marry I will have been taught many things to make me a good wife/mother. I'm very excited about the day God sends me my husband until then I will keep preparing myself. If he's not here now, then I or he must not be ready. lol :) I just love the feeling of looking down at my promise ring, thinking of the engraving (it says," I'm my husbands.") and knowing that my future best friend is out there preparing himself, just as I am.

Some of my drawings...

2010-03-19T13:33:00.000-07:00

I've always loved drawing. I've never had lessons, although I'd like too one day. Drawing just seems to calm me in my most stressed times. It seems to take me into a world filled with beauty and possiblities. When I look at the blank sheet of paper before my pencil I close my eyes and think of something, whether it be a tree in my back yard, or a person from a picture. I look at the details and study them in my head. Sometimes I copy them down by looking at them, and sometimes I draw from memory. This picture below is my favorite drawing I've ever drawn. It is meant to be a gift to someone ,although I'm not sure who. I just know and I knew when I drew it that it wasn't meant for me to keep. It's a drawing of Jesus. :D

Here are some of my other drawings...

This one I drew from the cover of Breaking Dawn. I found some phrases out of the book I liked and wrote them down.

The picture above is one I drew recently. There was no real meaning behind this one. Just a young girl letting go, I guess you could say. Behind her is supposed to be a waterfall. (sort of) lol

The picture below is supposed to be my version of Edward from the "Twilight Series." He is by no means finished and by no means what the vision looks like in my head but...Oh, and um...he doesn't have a shirt on cause I don't know how to draw one. Ha. LOL I'd really like him to wear a nice preppy Polo shirt but like I said, I've no clue how to draw it. Remember, he still needs work! lol

The tree above is one from a dream.(But the tree in my dream was in color and had moss all over it) This was my first go with charcoals! Kind of a dark picture but I was really into "Charcoal Land." lol ;)

Well, there are most of my drawings. The other ones I dare not show. *shudder* ;) I hope one day when I have a house of my own I'll have a room just for me to draw in. One that holds my pencils, paper, erasers, etc. Maybe a room with a view. A cozy room over looking a lake surrounded by lush green grass, sprinkled with wild flowers...Mmm, how lovely....Well, time to get out of my head. lol Thanks for taking a look into the world of my drawing'n dreams~

Blessings in abundance~

Random Pictures...

2010-03-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

When I was outside a few days ago I found this little patch of moss around a tree in the backyard. I loved the way it looked so I grabbed some of my jewelry placed them on top of it. and started taking pictures The old key in the picture was the key to my great grandmother's house. Isn't it cool lookin? :)

The picture below was one I couldn't pass up on taking. I'm not sure what kind of plant this is, but I thought it looked just lovely in the sunlight.

Last but not least...the Pacifier. lol I couldn't help myself. I thought it'd make a nice picture. ;)

Accept my apology ;)

2010-03-11T19:47:00.000-08:00

Dear Blog,

Please accept my sincerest apology. I've been ever so busy lately that I haven't given time any time to you. *sniffle*...I've missed you so much! I wish I had time to write more right now but...I must go. I will love you forever and always. *giggle* Thank you for always being here for me to release my feelings whenever I please. Your a special..um...er, friend. :D I'll be back as soon as time allows. Till then, adieu~!~*chuckle*

I really have missed my Blog. Life just seems to be so busy, ya know? I miss reading my friends Blogs too. I love you guys. You're really an inspiration, laugh, comfort, pick-me-up, or all the above! lol Your Blogs are very special to me. Thanks for Blogging. :D

Till free time finds me again,

Blessings in abundance!

Please leave a message at the tone of the beep. ;)

2010-03-01T16:13:00.000-08:00

Ok, so today hasn't been my best day I've ever had. lol It seems that the kids wanted to be really loud with their made up songs or make some of the weirdest most annoying noises I've ever heard. LOL Don't get me wrong, (love them to death!) they're pretty creative with them. ;) For some reason though, today has not been a day of focus for me. All day I feel like I've been goin, "Huh, I don't get it, I don't understand, or I'm sorry what'd you say?" That tends to get rather annoying when you've lost what seems to be all focus when you want to be of help to anyone. Since it was driving me crazy I turned on some soft music while I did my chores to try to get my brain to come back from it's so rudely taken "Lunch Break." Let me tell ya'll something, listening to the piano really helped. I was a little less tense and my brain came skipping back to it's post. (My brain and I had a little talk on leaving without my permission and it agreed to ask first before running off but, *pull you closer and whisper*~I don't belive it) lol Thankfully, Blogging helps when I get tense so thank ya'll for listening to me. It means alot. lol ;) I hope you guys have a very happy, God filled, focus having day!

I could've danced all night, and still have begged for more

2010-02-28T15:45:00.000-08:00

Last night I had the privilege of joining some friends to take an old fashioned dance class. I had SO much fun! I have never ever "danced" before. Sure I've danced around the house but not actual dancing. I was very nervous. (esp. with my lack of balance and constant tripping over my own feet at home!. lol) When we first walked into the large room, we went and sat on the chairs against the back wall. For the first dance I was not asked by anyone to be their partner but for that I'm glad. lol (although I was asked again and again after that!) For the first dance or two I just watched or, more like studied. The dances were beautiful but they looked confusing. After the first 2 dances were finished it was my turn to join in. o.o *chuckle* I was pared with a young man my age, who knew how to dance, unlike me. lol I told him I had never danced a day in my life and that I didn't even know which hand to place in his. Thankfully he found my ignorance funny and helped me out. That dance was SO much fun! I don't remember the name of it but there was clapping and we were constantly changing partners. Now, occasionally you got a partner that was...umm...well...that wouldn't have been your pick, if you get my jist. That was interesting. ;) lol

Then, there was some sort of Waltz. I danced with one of the friends that brought me. I think he and I did pretty well for not having a clue of what we were doing. lol Thanks Ryan for dancing with me and not being annoyed each time I messed up. lol
My favorite dance was probably...Gosh, I can't remember any of the names of the dances! lol Anyway, It was a dance where a guy pics two girls to dance with. The guy who asked me to dance was a charming young man ( prob a little younger than me) who knew his stuff! He and his family compete. :O It was super easy to dance with him and for that I'm thankful. lol The picture I'm posting below is from...yes, if you know me you'll know where the next picture is from. lol But I'm gonna say it anyway. :P "Pride and Prejudice." What Lizzie and Mr. Dracy are doing in this pic is part of the dance we did. Passing eachothers shoulders. Man, It was FUN! Fun and beautiful! After last night I just wanted to keep singing the song from "My Fair Lady." *I could have danced all night. I could have danced all night and still have begged for mooore. I could have spread my wings and done a thousand things I've never done befooore.* etc~lol :D I hope to be able to do that again very soon!

Little Baby Chickens :D

2010-02-26T15:43:00.000-08:00

A while ago we visited some friends that had just bought some little chicks. They were so darn cute, as you can see. I was allowed to hold one and it was awesome! The feeling of holding a living thing so tiny in your hands and feeling it breathe was...indescribable. I was amazed at the tiny creature as it looked up at me with those itty bitty eyes, probably wondering who I was and why I was holding it. LOL Anyway, it was a beautiful experience that I'm very thankful for. :D Maybe one day we'll have our own little chicks! That'd, be AWESOME~lol

Me and the fluffy chick.

Thanks Sooo much Veronica, for letting me hold your little baby chickens! lol :)

Heck yeah, contacts! o.o

2010-02-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

Today, as I had talked about a bit in my last post, I went to see the Eye Doctor. I had run out of contacts and was super excited to get some more :D The doctor was one I had never been to before, but he was awesome! I learned that my vision hadn't worsened as I had thought, but it had gotten better! Unbelivable huh?! I was thrilled. He also told me that the last eye people I had seen gave me glasses for worse vision than what I had. He also said, that wearing corrective lenses that are for worse vision than what I had or have could can cause my eyesight to worsen really badly. So all the times I purposely didn't wear my glasses I was being smart! Ha Ha! See Mom, I knew what I was doin. *chuckle and widen eyes while looking away* Anywho, I got contacts! lol Praise God for corrective lenses!!! ;)

New Boots :o

2010-02-25T17:56:00.000-08:00

My mom just bought me a new pair of boots and I love them! I couldn't wait to have somewhere to go just so I could walk around in my new pretty black boots. Well, today was the day! lol I had an Eye Doctors appointment and I was very eager to put on my lovely lil boots. ;) I had a long sleeve chocolate brown sweater on, a pair of blue jeans, and my boots. I felt goood. lol That was until a few hours later...*sigh and shake head*~ *chuckle*

I have one word for those beautiful, lovely, happy,happy, Black boots....*Ow* I wasn't thinking about my first real time wearing heels (even though they weren't really tall heels) or the fact that I had to break em in. I was just thinking of how great I felt! lol Let's just say, by the time I got home I was barefoot rather quickly. ;) My lovely lil boots and I will meet again this Sunday for church....just this time, not for as long a...er...visit. lol

Hey! I can hear YOUR music!

2010-02-20T16:53:00.000-08:00

I found the picture above on Google and am using it sense I didn't get to take a picture of mine. I have the happy lil purple i-pod above and the same boombox but my boombox is silver. I received the boombox as a present from Mama and Dad on Christmas. I just love it! It's sooo much better than a radio cause you get to pick what comes on! lol I hadn't opened it till recently because Dad was adding songs to my i-pod for me. But, I opened it yesterday and it's awesome! My 8 year old sister said after I stuck my i-pod in and cranked up the volume, " Hey! I can hear your music!" (LOL) Like my music on my i-pod was some secret government code or somethin. lol Anyway, we were all thrilled, esp. my 8 year old sister, Maddie who got to listen to my music. LOL

Sticking out ;)

2010-02-17T17:48:00.000-08:00

I've always stuck out. I've always been different from everyone else. A while back one of my FB friends said they really felt like they stuck out a lot and just wanted to blend in. I can't say I haven't felt like that before but, I have realized over the past few years as I've grown and changed that, I'm me. I've realized that I'm not gonna change me for anyone. A while back my family and I were in a store when a song I knew came on. I was in a really good mood so, I started singing along. lol Then my mom joined me. Talk about sticking out. lol For some strange reason, no one sings in stores anymore. *Shrug* I wonder why. ;) Another way I find my family and myself are sometimes sticking out is when we match. It's like no families ever where the same color clothes. What's up with that? lol Matching is cool! (On special occasions). ;) lol Gosh, I remember one time back when we were Catholic and we weren't feeling right at any of the churches and we got up and left before Mass was done. *Shudder* Yeah...For some reason everybody and their mama decided to watch and stare at "the family in matching purple skirts" --(Well, besides Dad. lol )-- leave before Mass was done. Ahhh, the memories. LOL Anywho, as time goes on I know I stick out and I don't mind anymore. Infact, sometimes I like to embrace it! lol So if you stick out anyway, sing in a store. ( Preferably a Grocery Store...More fun with fruit..heehee )

Happy Anniversary~!~

2010-02-16T12:50:00.000-08:00

Today is the 12 year Anniversary of the day my Mom and Stepdad met. Wooo Whoo! *Happy Dance* I am so very blessed to have Dad in my life and I thank God for sending him to my mom. It's amazing to think that none of my sisters would be here if Mom and Dad hadn't met. Such a wild thought. lol Well, Happy Anniversary Mama and Dad! I love you both very much! Keep those hearts burning like the day ya'll met. ;) *giggle*

Yawn

2010-02-15T16:14:00.000-08:00

Today, I am tired....Why is it on the days you really need to do things, you're tired? All I wanted to do today from the moment I awoke this morning was sit on the couch and have a Movie day. Doesn't that sound great? Lounge on the couch eat junk food *or just Mama's left over sugar cookies wt mint icing ;)* and watch movie after movie with the lights low or no lights at all. A quite, peaceful, sleepy day. *Breathe in deeply* Ahhh, sounds great! lol Unfortunately I didn't get to have my Movie Day. :/ But it's ok cause I know it will come on it's own time. Although, I'll probably be able to have my" Movie Day" when I want to have a, "Get up and go anywhere cause I'm really awake and full of energy Day." LOL *Sigh* So for now I'm gonna finish my day and look forward to tonight. Maybe read a little Pride and Prejudice before I fall asleep. My luck I'll just read and be like, " Then Lizzie laughed at Mr. Darcy's expression...*yawwwwn*.......Mr. Darcy was......*starts to fall over*.....*pops back up ands look at book again*......"was trying to hide"..... *head starts to fall again..drops book*.....*loud bang of book hitting the floor*...*Opens eyes really wide and looks around*......*gives up and goes to bed*....LOL ;) Maybe I'll just listen to some soft music before bed instead of reading. lol ;) Have a Great Night guys!

P.S. I found the pic above on Google. Isn't it pretty? I just love the raindrops on the delicate petals. Iris' are my favorite flowers and I thought the picture kinda fit my sleepy day. :)

My Truck...;)

2010-02-11T15:59:00.000-08:00

Er...ok..so it's not "technically" my truck. I found the pic on Google. lol I just love the darn thing. I should probably learn how to drive first though huh? *Nodding* I know, I know. I have my driving book upstairs. I just haven't read it yet. lol Anywho, I love this truck and I thought I'd share. Oh heck! Since I'm goin all out, let me put one of my other dream cars on here too. Hehe ;)

Mmmmm! The lovely Maserati...Hey, I can dream. lol :P
Ohh...while I'm at it..Here's a pic of the lovely little car with my name on it. Seriously! It's a Saturn Sky..Hehe..I'd like it much better in black though.

Well, now I've showed you a few of the pieces of happiness I wish to own. lol Now I just need the money. Oh and know how to drive. *Sigh* That's gonna take awhile..lol :)

May I have this dance...Again?

2010-02-11T15:38:00.000-08:00

I have watched many a couples in my life. I've seen some couples that have made me eager for God to send me my husband, and then I've seen some that make me sick to my freaking stomach. *shudder thinking about them* :P I am amazed to see how one can love one another with his/her whole heart. (Speaking about the couples that don't make me sick.lol ) My Mother and Stepfather have been together for 12 years and will have been married 10 years this July. I have watched them through tough times and how they have loved eachother, brings tears to my eyes. My Stepfather now has a job that makes Family time hard to have often, much less to have Mom and Dad time. It's hard on all of us, but God has a reason for it that I try not to question. Last night at dinner we all sat down at our table and Dad started to pray over our food, I happened to look up in the middle of the prayer to see Mom and Dad lock eyes. I was imm. overwhelmed at the love they possessed for eachother. I, at that moment saw all of there years together in one glance.All the struggles and happy times. Just one glance.. .I pray that our Heavenly Father blesses my future husband and I with the strength and love that my Mother and Stepfather share. Occasionally Mom and Dad have a night to themselves where I watch the girls so they can get out and breath for a while, although those nights seem few and far between. But ever so often on a busy day, I catch the question, that has been asked many times over the years, in Dad's eyes as he looks at Mama and causes her to smile. Whether in the kitchen cooking, on the couch in the Living Room, or at the Dining Room table... May I have this dance...again? :)

Sweet Tea~!~

2010-02-09T16:43:00.000-08:00

I love Sweet Tea! In my opinion my Dad's Sweet Tea is the best. But, I'm trying to beat him. Shhh, don't tell anybody. *giggle* ;)
I just love how easy it is to make. You just (1.) boil water, (2.) take it off the burner and add 4 tea bags, (3.) let the Tea steep, (4.) take out tea bags, (5.) add 1 cup of sugar * Sometimes I add a smidge more ;)* (6.) stir till sugar is melted, (7.) pour into pitcher and add cold water. Then you've got Sweet Tea! Mmm~

Add those happy Tea bags and let steep~

Stirring in the sugar. :)

Adding the water~

Thank the good Lord for Sweet tea! ;)

Warm Cherry Pie~~

2010-02-05T17:55:00.000-08:00

Last night Dad went to the store and brought back a cherry pie. I love cherry pie so I was very happy! I was counting the seconds until that beautiful pie was finished baking. lol We unfortunately didn't take a picture of it (probably because we -(-meaning I-)-was too hungry to take a picture lol ). So I decided to Google pictures of cherry pie to put on here. *Sigh* There aren't too many good pictures of cherry pie out there. lol I then settled for a picture of fresh cherries, as seen above. I just wanted to tell ya'll that if you are a "cherry pie" kinda person, then I would definately go out and get one. Mmm! My favorite happens to be the one with the Lattice top and the pretty sugar on top. ;) Anywho, that with some vanilla ice cream. *Stomach growls* Er...I think I'm gonna go and have myself another piece of pie. Hehe ;) Have a good night!

Hurry up Spring :)

2010-02-04T14:00:00.000-08:00

I am so ready for winter to be over. Growing up in Texas and moving to Idaho, it's been different. lol A good different but still, different. If given the choice I wouldn't move back to Texas. I love Idaho! It's beautiful and better in alot of ways. I found this picture on Google and I haven't an idea of where it was taken but seeing it made me feel warm. lol It made me remember things from earlier this year. It made me remember laying on the soft warm grass,( Where we lived in Texas there was no soft grass.), BQ outside for dinner, walking around barefoot, short sleeve shirts, etc. *Sigh*....*Walk outside...shiver and run back in*...Darn cold. lol I never ever thought I'd say this but, no more snow. I use to dream of living in a place where it always snowed. Haha...yeah I know, I wasn't thinking. I miss the heat. I miss being barefoot! I hate wearing socks. LOL Mom fusses at me cause on really cold days I purposely won't wear socks. :P As silly as it sounds, I also never thought about snow ever becoming sloshy or it melting and refreezing! Ice is dangerous. I found that out after my family did a 360 during our move up here. I hadn't a clue! lol Well, I wish this post would get rid of the cold right now but unfortunately, I don't think it'll happen.lol But I feel a little better now after venting. :) I'm gonna get off here and go find something to eat. Maybe ice cream? Yes, I'm strange. lol Ice cream during winter is great. Don't knock it till you try it. ;) Have a Happy Thursday! :)

Skye

A Strong Cup of Coffee ;)

2010-02-02T16:18:00.000-08:00

These past few days have made my mind feel slightly ovewhelmed. I woke up this morning with a headache and a pulled shoulder muscle. :/ *Sigh* Those days are never my favorite. lol But we must finish them. A little bit ago started myself and Mama a pot of coffee. As I put each scoop of coffee grinds into the filter I inhaled deeply. My! How helpful certain scents can be when you've had a rough day/week. lol The "coffee can" almost didn't make it back to the freezer. LOL I then very impatiently waited on the coffee maker to do it's thing. *Tapping fingers* .......*Sigh*......*Inhale deeply*......*Beep!* Praise God! lol Now I am sitting drinking a strong delightful cup of coffee. :) If your having a less than wonderful day I suggest fixing yourself a hot cup of coffee, hot chocolate, or tea. Whichever you prefer, just don't forget to inhale deeply as you drink. ;)

One Handed. ;)

2010-02-01T22:26:00.000-08:00

Most of the time I write, I writing one handed. The reason for that is that I'm normally holding my 9 month old sister. My last post I wrote I was holding my youngest sister who was very cranky at the time. She was not very thrilled I had the urge to write. lol She decided she'd watch me for a bit to see exactly what I was doing. Then after about 2 seconds she grabbed and pulled my hair as hard as her little muscles would allow. I gasped and told her, "No no. That's not nice. You don't pull my hair." She then thought it'd be funny to go at it again. I moved her hand and fussed gentle. She growled and shortly after, yawned. lol I changed her postion to where she was laying on my chest. She gave in and rested her head on my shoulder. *Sigh* I could go back to my blog. Wrong. lol Autumn grunted and those little wondering hands moved up to my face, over my eyes. :/ I just knew either I moved away from my computer and gave up on my poor little post or I kept at getting her to sleep. After a brief moment of contemplation I made up my mind to put her to sleep. lol I kissed her and then proceeded to bounce my sister as I typed.

After about 5 minutes Autumn was out on my shoulder. *cheer!* hehe I could finally write!...*long pause* Problem was, after all of the struggling with my little love I completely lost my train of thought! lol I sighed and gave up on my Blog for that night. Instead I turned on some soft music and just enjoyed holding my tiny sister.<3

(I also wrote this post to explain why some of my posts might not have proper punctuation/spelling. Please forgive me in advice.lol )

Reading a Good Book..:)

2010-01-30T21:04:00.000-08:00

I don't know about ya'll, but I love to read a good book. :) My mother has just finished writing her second book in a four book series. I just finished reading that second book, Forsaken. Let me tell you, I was taken away to another world while reading that book. I was and am in awe of how beautifully it is written and how realistic it is. I have laughed, cried, and gotten angry throughout the first 2 books I've read in the Ice Moon series. My Mama has amazing talent that, to me, can't be compared to any. I'm so very happy she decided to start writing! I'm in love with her books and am hungry for the next ones. If any of you would like to see Mama's book site it's at the top of my blog page. There you can read alittle about the fantaastic book. I'll put the site here as well. :) Ice Moon is being edited as I speak and I can't wait to hold my own hard copy in my hands! :) http://www.icemoonseries.com/

Arms wide open...

2010-01-17T19:53:00.000-08:00

There have been times in my life where I've felt like this girl. Then again, who hasn't at some point or another. There have been times where I feel tired, hurt, annoyed, fooled, etc. There are times I know God is there but I can't understand why He is drawing my life the way He is or why He doesn't make things better. There are also times that I don't understand why He lets things happen, or the opposite. These are the times when I really need to immerse myself in the Bible. Normally though, those are the hardest times to pick it up, at least for me. Thankfully I'm blessed with an awesome family that loves me! Thankfully these times aren't very often. :) But nevertheless, they've happened. I wanted to write this post for anyone who has every felt like the young girl above...there is hope!

God does love you... very much! : D Sometimes we must wait to see what our Father has planned for us and let go. I am learning to let go and allow Him to be in total control of my life. : D He loves me and I know He will not harm me in any way. I just recently met some new Christians at the new church we are attending. I don't know if any of ya'll have ever met anyone who you can actually feel God through them. But let me tell you it's an awesome feeling!!! People like that should be awarded! ( LOL) I know first hand that sometimes it's not easy being to be friendly to others. Maybe we've had a bad day or maybe we have been hurt. If that's the case opening your arms to let others in isn't easy. But what I realized is that first we must open our arms to God! We must do that before we open our arms to others. If we do that, then we can better guard ourselves against rude comment, hurtful remarks, etc, from others.. We will then have the patience to hold back our ungodly words we'd like to spit back ;) lol I believe this will also help us accept the love shown to us by others. I just wanted to remind myself or tell you for the first time (which ever it may be) to open your arms to God. He loves you more than any Father can ever love their child. He's waiting...

A Little About Me

2010-01-15T18:41:00.000-08:00

Here's a little about me:

1.) I am a Christian
2.) I've been homeschooled since fourth grade (7 years)
3.) I've lived in 4 states
4.) I love to draw
5.) I enjoy singing
6.) I want to write a book
7.) I'm a Maiden waiting for my husband
8.) I love crawfish
9.) I am Pro-Life. My mom was pregnant with me at 16 and I thank her everyday for keeping me.
10.) I believe in modesty
11.) I love to take pictures
12.) I love to read
13.) My favorite fictional book is my mom's http://www.icemoonseries.com/
14.) I love pie and laughter. Laughter and pie :P
15.) I love Idaho!

It's a New Year!

2010-01-15T14:58:00.000-08:00

It's a brand New Year! Praise God! lol I don't know about ya'll but I have alot of plans for 2010. I thought I'd share 10 things I'd like to do or accomplish this year. :)

(1.) learn to play my violin
(2.) write my book
(3.) read my Bible more often
(4.) learn to cook more meals
(5.) learn to sew
(6.) learn more crochet stitches
(7.) learn to do more old fashioned hairstyles
(8.) learn to speak French
(9.) learn to control my temper *or learn to fight the cajun fire in me. lol ;)*
(10.) and just for the hay of it, learn how to milk a cow or a goat

Now that I've shared some of the things I'd like to do or accomplish this year I'd love to hear what you guys are wanting to do/learn during 2010! : D So from here in Idaho...HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope God blesses ya'll this year and many years to come in abundance! :)

Not what I thought it'd be like...learning from my mistakes~

2010-01-12T20:00:00.000-08:00

If you think of someone watching you during every moment of your life, listening to every word you say, hearing your every thought. Suddenly you'd be much more careful of how you'd act, right?...Well I also know that sometimes I forget exactly who I am being watched by... God. Also I forget how some of my actions can hurt others. Others I love. Others I'd never want to hurt...Growing up I've been sheltered, I guess some would say, from certain things of the world. As I had blogged a while back I found an old friend. David. I was very happy to have this friend back in my life and along with his enthusiasm I started to plan having him in my life..never to leave. (Maybe as more than a friend). He had problems..I thought ok..Big problems...still...umm ok...Huge problems!...*sigh*...not ok...You'd think the sirans blaring in my head and my parents warnings would have been enough to stop all of my "doll house" dreams. But I thought..He has problems..but it isn't his fault. He can't help that bad stuff has happened to him. That the bad stuff has molded him..He's a good person, with a great heart. As he himself had told me, "I just want to get away...and be happy." In my head I saw the opportunity of helping my friend that I loved to be happy and to somehow "get away." Sadly I went with my feelings. Both my parents had warned me of how different David and I were and that we had no future even as friends because he was still choosing bad things and that if he really wanted to be happy, he'd do what it took to make it happen. I felt different. I knew he had problems. But I thought they were problems I could fix. I thought they were problems given to him by parents,bad friends,public school, ect. Some were infact, most of them were but some that I seemed to look over were all done by him. :(...I didn't want to belive any of it. He had told me he loved me and that he had feelings for me and I thought I felt the same way. I explained to him my convictions of waiting till marriage to kiss or anything past that,never being alone with a boy,and how I tried to dress modestly. He told me how wonderful it all was. Which of course made me happy. I was living in dream land. Floating on a cloud of lies (some of which I'm sad to say I made too myself) and wanting my future to come to me sooner than God's time allows and I ignored all possible signs of trouble. Long story short David hurt me. Not going into detail I was mad at him and at myself for opening up more than I should have. I would tell others of my convictions of saving myself but in reality I wasn't guarding my heart as I should have. Honestly if my parents wouldn't have stepped in...I would have lost what didn't belong to David..or to me..but to my husband who ever he may be, where ever he may be. My mama told me that I wasn't allowed to talk to David after he had hurt me. She told me that he wasn't healthy for me. David then text me. Both my parents were out. I was so curious of why he'd hurt me and never apologized so I stupidly answered his "Can I ask you something ?" text. Mama had told me not too but I felt like I needed to respond. I felt that it was important. Something I've learned recently...never trust your feelings. My head and my heart were saying two different things. :( Curious I asked him why he'd hurt me and never apologized. He said he didn't know he'd hurt me. There is more but I've said alot. My mom called and it apparently went to voicemail. She was furious. I then stupidly lied. I said I didn't know her exact rules. I hate the feeling of messing up then hurting others. I hate when people hurt..esp. my mom..:( I ruined our night that night. I hurt my parents. And I hurt myself. I got almost everything worldy that I cared about taken away. What makes me most angry is that I deserve it. And the absolute worst punishment was the look of pure pain on mama's face when she knew I lied. I didn't addmit it right away either. I was too ashamed. I know that was wrong..very wrong. I've come to a few conclusions after that night. One: I hate to hurt anyone esp. Mama, Two: Going against the rules is not worth the punishment, Three: I needed to apologize to God for lying, Four: I'm going to apologize to my future husband for not trusting in him and for almost giving away what only belongs to him, Five: If you have a family that loves you..it's not just your life. Saving myself is not at all what I thought it'd be like. It's harder. Because It's saving your heart too..not just your body. Right now I want to thank God and my parents for being there and stopping me from going down the road I was so determined to go down. And I would also like to apologize to my Mama who didn't deserve my dishonesty or my disobedience. :'( To any young unmarried girls who may read this...please learn from my stupidity...save yourself in all aspects. Remember that God, your parents, and your future husband love you very much. And don't forget that decisions don't just effect you...they effect your whole family and your future. Choose wisely~

~Our life Painting~

2009-12-11T13:41:00.000-08:00

Today I thought I would share a few pictures from the famous Thomas Kinkade...His work has always amazed me!...Me myself being an artist....I know the immense excitement when one of my pieces of art work looks remotely decent!...lol..However I cannot imagine the joy Thomas Kinkade feels after finishing the paintings he finishes. God blesses many people with many different talents....I just wanted to say how very thankful I am to witness some of these many talents. Such as these icredible paintings!!!...Nothing calms me more (other than praying) than picking up my pencil and letting loose on a blank sheet of paper...I remember the last drawing I drew..I had just started when my mom walked in and looked at my paper...She told me her oppinion of what it was which was comepletely off...lol....She left and came back some time later and guessed again...And again, she was mistaken...When I was finally finished I showed her my work and we both laughed at her past guesses...Thinking of that makes me think of something...We are such impatient children...constantly looking over our Heavenly Father's shoulder trying to guess how He is drawing "our life " and what it is...He (like I did with my mom) won't tell us...We must wait for Him to finish. As each day passes we look at our life and think " Is that seriously what your drawing?"...lol..;)..He has an AMAZING drawing/painting of our life...As His children we must sit back (take an occasional peek..hehe...) and wait for the final outcome of our incredible lives!...:)

Little Hands

2009-12-06T13:34:00.000-08:00

I'm holding my smallest sister and she's happy and smiling. Suddenly her eyes start to droop.I change her position on me and lay her on my chest. Then her habit of the wondering hands prevails..lol....Her little hands decide to dance all over my face...I laugh and she lifts her head to look at me with a confused exprssion...She doesn't understand how I found humor in her "getting ready to sleep" habit. I now think back to my boring days of being an only child. I'm so blessed to have sisters!!!...God is great!....And I am reminded everytime I feel "little hands."....Thank you God for my sisters!!

Who I am :)

2009-11-11T20:11:00.000-08:00

I'm a 16 year old convicted Indepent Baptist girl who was once a full fledge Catholic who loved her faith very much. I try to please my Heavenly Father as each days comes. My mom was a teenage mother who chose to keep her baby and I thank her everyday for that. I was and am a life. Those babies can't speak for themselves so I will speak for them if and when they need me. I love my mother very much and we have a very special relationship because of our age differance and the love she has shown and given to me since the day I was born. I have been through a lot of difficult times in my life but I am thankful for them because they have made me strong and empathetic towards others. As the years have passed I started listening to God and how he wanted me to act and portray myself. I try everyday to make myself a more Godly girl,but in an ungodly world it's not always that easy.What us children of God have on our side is that if we act the way we should for our Amazing Father, He wants nothing more than to love and praise us for being the children He deserves. I'm not perfect and no matter how hard I try I'm gonna mess up. I'm still going to do my best to be a Godly girl.:)

Skye's World

New post on my new Blog! :D

I have a brand new Blog! Care to check it out?

I know...you have to go...

Would you wait?

Caught between sleep and awake...

Thinking...

Escape....

A cleansing rain

What you've been through.

Crystal clear...

Beautiful moments...

Race ya?

Just another Day...

10 Year Wedding Anniversary~

Frozen...

Just a pic. :)

Fun Day with Friends!

I just need to glue it onto my hands!

Dance with me.

La la la...:)

A moment...

OoOo, that's pretty.

Thursday Night Thoughts...

A Little Taller.

Little Sisters. o.O

Red Rover, Red Faces?

Wordless Wednesday

Rush in a dream...

Musical monday ♪♫•*¨*•¸♥ •*•♫♪

Through the Storm...

New look! :D

New Background...hmm

Musical monday ♪♫•*¨*•¸♥ •*•♫♪

Find me if you can

Blood relations...

Coming back 2 life!

Wordless Wednesday

Happy Easter!!!

Good Friday...

:P

Sneezing and Coughing and Headaches, Oh My!

Promise Ring...

Some of my drawings...

Random Pictures...

Accept my apology ;)

Please leave a message at the tone of the beep. ;)

*I could've danced all night, and still have begged for more*

Little Baby Chickens :D

Heck yeah, contacts! o.o

New Boots :o

Hey! I can hear YOUR music!

Sticking out ;)

Happy Anniversary~!~

*Yawn*

My Truck...;)

May I have this dance...Again?

Sweet Tea~!~

Warm Cherry Pie~~

Hurry up Spring :)

A Strong Cup of Coffee ;)

One Handed. ;)

Reading a Good Book..:)

Arms wide open...

A Little About Me

It's a New Year!

Not what I thought it'd be like...learning from my mistakes~

~Our life Painting~

Little Hands

Who I am :)

Musical monday ♪♫•¨•¸♥ •*•♫♪

Musical monday ♪♫•¨•¸♥ •*•♫♪

I could've danced all night, and still have begged for more

Yawn